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Horse Barbie

A Memoir of Reclamation

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“A moving chronicle of trans resilience and joy” (Vogue) from one of Out100’s Most Impactful and Influential LGBTQ+ Storytellers
“Groundbreaking . . . [Rocero] quite literally models what triumph can look like.”—Glamour (Women of the Year)

WINNER OF THEM’S AWARD FOR LITERATURE • A BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR: Book Riot, Elle, Esquire

As a young femme in 1990s Manila, Geena Rocero heard, “Bakla, bakla!,” a taunt aimed at her feminine sway, whenever she left the tiny universe of her eskinita. Eventually, she found her place in trans pageants, the Philippines’ informal national sport. When her competitors mocked her as a “horse Barbie” due to her statuesque physique, tumbling hair, long neck, and dark skin, she leaned into the epithet. By seventeen, she was the Philippines’ highest-earning trans pageant queen.
A year later, Geena moved to the United States where she could change her name and gender marker on her documents. But legal recognition didn’t mean safety. In order to survive, Geena went stealth and hid her trans identity, gaining one type of freedom at the expense of another. For a while, it worked. She became an in-demand model. But as her star rose, her sense of self eroded. She craved acceptance as her authentic self yet had to remain vigilant in order to protect her dream career. The high-stakes double life finally forced Geena to decide herself if she wanted to reclaim the power of Horse Barbie once and for all: radiant, head held high, and unabashedly herself.
A dazzling testimony from an icon who sits at the center of transgender history and activism, Horse Barbie is a celebratory and universal story of survival, love, and pure joy.
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    • Kirkus

      May 1, 2023
      A model and trans advocate recounts the story of her life, from her childhood in the Philippines to a series of careers in the U.S. In a humorous, zesty memoir divided into 25 lively chapters, Rocero explores the various identities she has taken on and cast off, from "Craigslist Girl" to "Storyteller" to "Playmate." Growing up, she always identified as female in a country that celebrated transgender individuals and honored them in beauty pageants. As a child in a cramped apartment in the Manila metro area, Rocero looked forward to being able to compete in pageants. In high school, she began working with Tigerlily, "a slender femme in her early twenties with pouty protruding lips and long lustrous hair who'd made a name for herself as the Beauty Queen Maker." Affectionately called Horse Barbie by the members of her pageant cohort, due to her prominent teeth and long legs, neck, and hair, she quickly rose to the top of the scene. Her nostalgic stories of these days, when she crafted a version of a bridal veil out of toilet paper and ate her fill of "the classic Filipino trio of garlic fried rice, eggs and marinated beef," are the highlights of the book. At 17, Rocero moved to San Francisco to be with her mother. To save money for gender-affirming surgery in Thailand, she worked at the Macy's cosmetic counter and then moved to New York to become a model. As she recounts, her early years modeling were some of the most anxious times of her life. While trans models were accepted in the Philippines, she feared that being outed in New York would mean an ignominious end to her career. While readers may grow weary of accounts of her dating life, Rocero's cheerful, upbeat attitude carries the story through even its less absorbing chapters. A jaunty and inspiring memoir of an eventful life with many acts left to unfold.

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    • Booklist

      July 28, 2023
      This anticipated memoir from Filipino-American trans-rights activist Geena Rocero delivers a powerfully candid story of resilience that not only crosses continents, but also challenges the borders of transgender discrimination. By interweaving pop-culture references with reflections on colonial legacies, toxic masculinity, and gender fluidity, Rocero recounts moving from the Philippines to the U.S., which parallels her career change from an openly transgender pageant queen to a model with a hidden identity. The duality between Rocero's Filipino heritage and her newfound Americanness is a motif, poignantly highlighting the different cultural and legal barriers for transgender recognition. Addressing serious topics, including gender affirmation surgery and sexual violence, Rocero maintains a skilled and steady voice, anchored to her truth, that grants readers the opportunity to embrace her pain and triumphs. Horse Barbie also exudes narrative craftsmanship in the author's keen inclusion of Tagalog-infused slang and reverence for Indigenous cultures, presenting a diverse worldview representative of her remark, "Freedom was contagious."" Readers both new to and familiar with Rocero's advocacy will by captivated by the emotional openness of her memoir.

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